i was the nice guy the guy that treated everyone well but was treated like shit in return girls came to me with their problems about their boyfriends and i wanted to tell them that if they had been with me that none of this would have happened but i just never had the heart to. People would report to the police that i had brought a bomb or gun to the school on a monthly basis because they thought it was funny. It hurt to be treated like scum by those officers i knew them and their families. I ended up getting in a fight in the last days of school, i almost killed the kid but i stopped myself. The staff ended up calling it self defense because he threatened me and my family. I never felt the same it tears me up to hurt people. Every girl that i attempt to date doesn’t want to because i get railroaded to the friend zone every time. I spend my paychecks on games to keep my mind off of my life. I am a burden to my family and the few friends are like me. I tried to commit suicide once but the bullet didnt fire. I take pills but i eventually seem to overpower their effects. i dont know how much longer i am going to last.