My wife, lover, soulmate and carer walked out on me 6 months ago. I have tried suicide 4 times and been sectioned twice, just got out on thursday after drinking 1 1/2 litres of morphine and other tablets. I was revived three times in intensive care and still i want to die.
I have no job, my children wont talk to me, my youngest left my home last week and i live in physical pain daily. I am treat by everyone around me in my village with contempt, they all think i,m a nutter for trying to kill myself repeatedly. I have been home 4 days now and not one person has asked how i am, i am treat worse than a paedaphile. I am in total isolation.My only crime in life is loving my wife (20 year marriage) and children. I am a loser in life and my heart is broken and the pain is too much to bear daily. I did nothing wrong to my wife, she left one night and dumpted me by text the next day, its like she died. I later found out she was having an affair all along.
Tonight i am using the H2S method and really hope this ends my suffering. I have begged my wife to come back but she is in love with someone else. I am dead on the inside and really hope tonight ends my suffering. This world is a cruel place and i no longer want to be part of it. I ignore the phone, throw all mail in the bin, i am too depressed to continue.Â Loneliness is the biggest killer of all, i only wanted to be a good husband and father in life and everything has been taken away from me. I only hope my wifes boyfriend becomes a better father figure to my children than me after my suicide attempts.