hey its me again the 13 year old i have a bottle of pills right next to me ive already started cutting on my arms and wrists guess its time to take the pills writing my letter maybe someone can change my mind but i dont think so
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Talk to me. I need your help just as much as you need mine at this moment.. I will listen to whatever you have to say and I wont judge you. I am here for you. I have been contemplating suicide since 4 pm this afternoon and have been scanning websites. I just saw your post and registered with this website, to help you. Please talk to me before you do anything to hurt yourself.. We can help each other, I know we both need someone to talk to.
I hope the best for you, comrade. I know bullying is really tough to deal with and I don’t blame you. I’m a realist. Shit is tough and there is never any guarantee that it will get better.
Again, I wish the best of luck to you.
Happy trails
Please look to God ,he loves you ,people can help you with your depression but in the long it won’t be enough ,your gonna need God in this ,please don’t take your life.
How dare you tell him to look to god, seriously, NOBODY wants to have religion pushed on them… how would you feel if you were trying to express your feelings, and someone comes along and blatantly says “please look to god”, you think god is the only answer? HOW DESPICABLE, even though this isn’t my post, take your religious bullshit elsewhere!
Calm down, Malfeitor. I know we each have our own opinion, there is a less rude way to tell someone something without having to bite their head off. Surely you are fed up with religion, but all she’s trying to do is let people know Religion is still there if they want it.
Also, please go back to your post and read what I typed up for ya.
Again, calm down and chill.
Much appreciated!
Can’t help it, I get real heated about stuff like that, it’s a given with clinical depression, easily irritable, I’m sure you know so I don’t have to explain right?
Yes, I have read. Unless you posted another? I don’t see it.
But as for SuicideIsTheOnlyWay97, hope everything works out the way you wish things to turn out, you know…whatever makes you happy, like for me it’s feeling of being dead and cold, freezing…yes….mmmm, I don’t know about you?
Don’t do pills, unless you want to wake up with machines pumping the shit out of your stomach, do a little bit of research and get creative! Nothing says fuck you world like a nice obscure death….am I right?
Very witty, Malfeitor. I admire your comedy. It’s funny. Thanks for making me laugh on, “Nothing says fuck you world like a nice obscure death…., am I right?”
Yes. I do understand that Religion can really get the best of us. I’m not say it’s a good thing or a bad thing. I’m saying some of us want it, some of us don’t.
Just try to keep your cool. Take a breather or something.
BTW, the only reason my comment isn’t showing up in your post (http://suicideproject.org/2010/11/malignant-eternal/#comment-47466) is because YOU have YET to APPROVE my comment! So go do that and then give me some feedback!
@Malfeitor please tell me where I pushed religion on him????I suggested God and left room for HIM TO CHOOSE but all I have to say is look at the world ,and take a good look at it ,THERE IS NO HOPE IN IT without a God ,you sound bitter and thats pretty understandable but when you hear more and more about 13 year olds ,young teens and even smaller kids thinking about suicide and even going through with it then something is wrong. The evil in this world has multiplied and its getting worse ,man cannot fix these problems and I’m sure you know this. I been through very bad depression ,only way I was able to get out of it was God and still the same rings true ,you can delude yourself all you want but in the long run it won’t help ,God/Jesus loves you all and will save every last one of you ,this suffering that we humans go through is not his will ,its actually the opposite with that said I am not gonna argue with you because that would be pointless.
I’m not arguing either, but I will say one thing, good doesn’t exist in this world ok, and you SHOULD comprehend this as you have suffered in your life to a very high extent I’m sure, there’s utter proof right there…don’t deny it.
I’m a strong believer in Esotericism which is far beyond ANY god, the only god that exists is oneself, ex. ME (no I’m not saying I am god, rather my OWN) this doesn’t apply to your beliefs of course. The way I put it, simple. “God” is there for the weak, all human beings are weak, and the majority need a “god” to show them this “light”.
How about this: Life on this Planet (& Universe, for that matter) is only for one purpose only: Survival.
People commit suicide everyday.
Hitler and wars kills millions of our species (humans)
Yet,..Life still goes on, and Humanity just kept evolving and evolving,..until who knows when.
Considering also that we humans only live for like 0.001% of the Earth’s history (not to mention Universe!!), it does make us pretty damn miniscule and insignificant, and “WHO ARE WE” to *complain and whine* about this Life, right? (remember: the purpose of Life is only for survival and the continuation of species & civilization, in whatever form that is)
But on the other hand, considering how despite all the genocides and wars and shits and fuck-ups humans kept doing along its history, they have progressed so MUCH (of course obviously from OUR perspective, not the Universe’s) with all its technology, modern sciences, cures in medicines, education, and even new values in spirituality are being combined and invented.
I think this alone is some kind of a *beauty* and *Hope* in itself, that Humanity will kept progressing and progressing, NO MATTER WHAT,….that is unless until a comet strikes the planet, or the Sun swallows our planet (even by then, humanity probably could have already invented ways to counter, escape, or even prevent it…hey, who knows ’bout the future???).
So I don’t know, I think with this ‘enlightenment’ that is ironically sort of pragmatist in tone, I DO get much much more comfort and peace that is unpretentious and forced like when I was still in religion (no offense, though, just my experiences personally).
So, in the end, to paraphrase and adding from the handicapped winner of China Got Talent this year, Liu Wei, I would conclude that for each single one of us, it’s
“to live meaningful life, or to die in Glory”.
Just that whatever you choose/opt to do, I would really really urge and recommend each of you to leave the *MESSAGE* to this world, so it will amplify your life (or death), and it will leave a MARK and not easily forgotten in vain!
I completely disagree on the statement that we have progressed so much. First, look at humans as of now, and compare them to let’s say…1 century ago, compare our age expectancy now to what they were 1 century ago, or even a couple decades ago, compare the IQ, our IQ’s are NOWHERE near what they were 1 century ago, why? because mankind is degenerating, or I could put this into scientific terms and call this eugenics, like I stated before, our species and generations are being dumbed down with a various spectrum of techniques, radiation, food, water, etc. I don’t need to sit here and continue to type this out, it’s common sense THINK ABOUT IT. You say we have evolved this far? THIS IS NOTHING, to where we should be at right now, NOTHING is impossible, if we didn’t have any of this shit to keep us from our limits we’d be millenniums ahead of what we are today.
I agree with Malfeitor, if anything we’ve degenerated. At least in the 18th century we had an intellectual revolution, and there wasn’t the existential threat of the fact that we possess enough atomic weapons to destroy the world several times over. This world has gone to hell in a handbasket. No wonder aliens haven’t landed on the White House lawn and made contact.
Very nice addition to my point sandman, well appreciated!
Infact, the military, police, laws, and the judiciary system are all proof that mankind is NOT civilized YET.
The reason why we have laws in the first place is because man has no current way to solve these problems, so what do they do? they make a law, saying that’s a no no, or you go to jail or face heavy fines. If mankind was civilized our supposed “superior intellect” would resolve these problems without the need for laws, for a military, for a judiciary system.
God is good. He moves me, he has saved my life over and over again. God, I am saddened in this moment by so many lost souls. I pray that you call them one by one aloud. That they hear your voice and feel your presence like no one else has before. I pray that they open their ears long enough to hear you, open their arms long enough to feel you. YOU ARE MY GOD, YOU ARE MY KING, and I appreciate the miracles you perform in my life, and I appreciate EVERY hardship as it teaches me to love you better. In Jesus’s name I pray, AMEN
Make another thread and continue it there. This is NOT your thread.