I divorced my abusive husband nearly 3 years ago after 30 years. The former marital home has been for sale ever since and I had to have lodgers to pay the overheads. Now there has been a low offer and I have been hounded into accepting it. I have nowhere to go and there isn`t enough money to buy a house for me. I have no job because I`m old and useless. Not too old to work; just too aftraid to go out of the house. I need to pack up a very big house and the task overwhelms me. And my ex still hounds me with texts until the early hours. I`m so scared that I think it would be easier to die. I`m 52 and can`t see a way forward. I feel sick all the time and can`t eat. I know my problems sound small compared to others and that makes me hate myself even more for being so feeble. I want to know how to kill myself painlessly because I am a coward.