I divorced my abusive husband nearly 3 years ago after 30 years. The former marital home has been for sale ever since and I had to have lodgers to pay the overheads. Now there has been a low offer and I have been hounded into accepting it. I have nowhere to go and there isn`t enough money to buy a house for me. I have no job because I`m old and useless. Not too old to work; just too aftraid to go out of the house. I need to pack up a very big house and the task overwhelms me. And my ex still hounds me with texts until the early hours. I`m so scared that I think it would be easier to die. I`m 52 and can`t see a way forward. I feel sick all the time and can`t eat. I know my problems sound small compared to others and that makes me hate myself even more for being so feeble. I want to know how to kill myself painlessly because I am a coward.
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as far as i know, drowning causes for a lot of self panicking, but i think it is the most painless way to go. i feel the same way about my problems seeming small compared to others.
your not wrong saing your problems are too small to count means i have no problems everyone deserve to function normally. you too deserve it i would suguest calling 1800suicide and going to the mental hospital maybe you apply for housing assistance or you maybe could get on disbility and get into a nice retirement home. and before you think thats wrong young people move to retirment homes too some are just in need of the assistance i know thats a durastic change but you’ll have people there with you you probly can get transportation to counseling and maybe with that help you can strenghten your self and staighten out your head and if thats not gonna help your mental state that drasticly just be the like all the normal disadvantaged. i hope you’ll take my advice you seem like a person who deserves all that humans can offer in help. i sometimes tell people how to kill them selves but i dont want you too you can email me at peoplemunkeyz@yahoo.com please hold on your so old wouldnt it be nice to be older and be an almost senile person laughing and crying with young babies that maybe if your well enough you can baby sit they can be a hand ful but so can losing or never having someone that can make the difference in thier life please cope with reality and get help. please
All this change is hard, but YOU ARE DOING IT! You got out of an abusive relationship. What an awesome accomplishment!
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I think you are incredibly brave to A) have survived an abusive husband for 30 years, and B) to have finally got up the courage to divorce him!
Your abusive ex is the coward–not you.
I don’t blame you for feeling overwhelmed about how to start your life over, or for being overwhelmed with the task of clearing out the house.
Have you contacted any women’s agencies like the YWCA? I realize it might be scary to reach out, and that there might not be much near you but don’t discount that there might be people who can help you, and don’t cut yourself down–I’m sure that if I met you I would think that you were great.
you are the farthest thing from a coward. You are unbelievably strong for leaving him. Give yourself credit, imagine how many women are still living in an abusive relationship. You may be sad now but you clearly were not much happier in your unhealthy relationship if you divorced him. Being upset after a divorce is something that will happen but you have to take the motivation you had to leave him and use it to regain your life. You may not think that you can do this but you have already done one of the hardest things youll ever have to do in your life. Be proud of what you did, be so proud that you want to prove to everyone and yourself that you are a strong and independent woman that DESERVES to live the rest of your life fully and happily. The hardest part is over, it is now your time to shine and become empowered. Use the anger and the sadness you feel to motivate yourself and as fuel to achieve the happiness you seek!
Not much left to say as I think its all been said already. I just want to wish u luck. Just take small steps as its pretty scarey out there on your own even after being in an abusive relationship for 30 years. I so admire you courage and I believe once u get on your feet, you’ll be amazed at what life has to offer u .
Good luck and stay strong X