i dunno if I’m doing this right. Probably not… Im a guy, been contemplating suicide I guess… Seems like it would never actually happen… I lost my girlfriend a month ago and honestly I am not a dramatic person in the slightest but this is just too much. Nothings as good without her, she was my everything and I was irrevocably in love with her and she dumped me because I changed for her. She thinks it’s who I am but it’s not. I only ever get about an hour of sleep every night now. I just want her back but everytime I talk to her more just goes wrong. Things I wish I didn’t know I find out about. What makes it worse is that this stupid Ginger FUCK is hitting on her all the time and she seems interested in him and I could accept that if I didn’t know he does this with every girl he meets. I really just wanna rip his vocal chords out, send him to china. But that wouldn’t get her back. Every night I think about what would really happen if I committed suicide? Parents would be sad. Friends would be sad. But for what, a month? Maybe they’d know half my pain then. I just dont want to live in a world where some jack ass Is fucking her. Sorry for the language.