i dunno if I’m doing this right. Probably not… Im a guy, been contemplating suicide I guess… Seems like it would never actually happen… I lost my girlfriend a month ago and honestly I am not a dramatic person in the slightest but this is just too much. Nothings as good without her, she was my everything and I was irrevocably in love with her and she dumped me because I changed for her. She thinks it’s who I am but it’s not. I only ever get about an hour of sleep every night now. I just want her back but everytime I talk to her more just goes wrong. Things I wish I didn’t know I find out about. What makes it worse is that this stupid Ginger FUCK is hitting on her all the time and she seems interested in him and I could accept that if I didn’t know he does this with every girl he meets. I really just wanna rip his vocal chords out, send him to china. But that wouldn’t get her back. Every night I think about what would really happen if I committed suicide? Parents would be sad. Friends would be sad. But for what, a month? Maybe they’d know half my pain then. I just dont want to live in a world where some jack ass Is fucking her. Sorry for the language.
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Hey man, Im 30 and male. I have had depression for as long as I can remember, I think about 16 is when it started to come up. Do not worry about the language, I swear all the fucking time. I have had a similar situation where I had to let go of a girl. Trust me I know the pain is unbearable, I still feel it everyday. Im not gonna bull shit ya and say I know the answers cause I do not. The only thing I have found that helps at all with suffering is talking to other people, and thus this is how I am talking to you now. It is not gonna take away the pain, may not help at all. But I have found at least making an attempt to talk will give some relieve rather than say nothing, Im here for ya man, just hang in there, Im sure you hear that shit all the time, but people really do care about you even though you do not feel it they do, just say whats on your mind man get it out and I hope me responding helps make some sense of this misery you feel..
That is why there’s a wise saying to never trust your heart and soul entirely to OTHER person, because humans are just simply fallible creatures, and that including you also. Every person must have flaw, error, mistake.
You will get terribly frustrated and depressed if you expect and hope too much from other person. Trust me on this.
All you can do is learn forgiveness, and just strive to be the best of yourself.
and in due time and right time, you’ll definitely fine another girl who’s also compatible, and even perhaps much better than her.
I mean looking at your story, it seems that she’s not the loyal type of girls, as she’s easily fallen to another guy.
that’s why I always precaution to NEVER ONLY fall in love to girls with attractive looks, ‘cuz they could in reality be a hell lot pain in the ass.
You just don’t know it yet.
Trust me, been there done that.
I would now rather have a girl who’s okay enough in scale of physical attractive, but she has a good and caring, plus if sweet and lovable personality, rather than a ‘bitchy’ high-attractive blonde or something like that. If it’s not for you, then it’s not for you.
You will find a better one. I know this, ‘cuz Life is full of unexpected things.
You have to just let things flow, and let the ‘unexpected’ parts of life (which is plenty) to come to you, ie: things you initially thought that could never happen before. It can and might happen.