I’m 20 yo, no job history. Been lookin for 3 years was told i was under qualified at Mc Donalds and under qualified at BK. I have a huge school debt that isn’t gettin paid soon, and its about to kick me out even tho i just transfered.( Never start ITT unless you plan to finish ) My mother walked out on me when i was 5 and left me with my grand parents. There I got abused physically and sexually then got into some serious trouble that im still payin the price for legally and Â emotionallyÂ . i haven’t had a stable home since i was 15. Foster Care, my aunts(kicked me out), my mother who could keep a job like i could keep my room clean ( never more then a month or so) so we moved every 2~3 months, then Christmas 2007 she send me to my sisters saying shes goin to florida (aka i wasn’t worth a check cuz i was 17) then my sister kicked me out (partially due to what happened at my grand parents and partially because she was having a baby) now i live with my disabled father who can’t afford to support him self let alone both of us. and just as i started to think everything was starting to look half assed i find out I might be going to jail over a technicality of what happened when i was 14 and living with my grand parents. Iv’e read alot about suicide even wrote a paper in high school about it. I tried to talk to everyone I know and they all said the same thing “your just being selfish” , maybe their right but god damn nothing has worked out for me as far back as i can remember. There has always been some one or something that has been following me, something that I have to keep to my self or be rejected by everyone. Iv’e Lied so many time to keep my true self hidden I don’t even know who the real me is. And yet I feel somehow obligated to sit here and post for the whole world to see what the people closest to me can’t seem to understand.