so i have been contemplating suicide for a long time now. I’m 48 years old, bipolar, and single. I have two wonderful children – they are grown-up now. They each live on their own, and gran kids won’t be coming along any time soon, if at all. My parents, especially my mother, really dislike my daughter, for no good reason. they shower all the love on one of their other grand kids, my brother’s daughter, Lizzi. In the family I am oldest. I am the one who they call when things aren’t going well – so i can either fix it or comfort them, or something. when they (my mom) is just mad, she also calls me – – looking for a dog to kick. and that’s me too. I’m tired of it. i have no control over any aspect of my life. This is all just the stuff that anyone can see. I feel so lost, so worthless – like if i weren’t here, the world and my family would be better off. the burden they carry by carrying me would be lighter.SO: HOW DOES SONE GO ABOUT DOING IT QUIETLY, AND NOT LEAVE ANY MESSES, AND NOT MAKE OTHERS FEEL BADLY?