I’ll try and make this quick. And please don’t comment saying life isn’t that bad and that I shouldn’t end it because my mind is made up. You’ll just be wasting my time and yours.
I’ve suffered from depression for 16, almost 17, years. I have tried therapy and psychiatry and while it might work for a month or so, it all of a sudden flips on me and I am worse than when I started. I am a cutter, have been since I was 10. I’ve tried commtting suicide before and obviously been unsuccessful. I’ve been trying for 12 years. My depression finally has consumed my life. I’ve lost the one person who understands me and loved me despite my fucked up mind. I was raped by a family members in-law and haven’t been able to deal with it, much less visit my family without constant fear. I was in an extremely abusive relationship. I don’t get along with my parents. I have a degree but am stuck in a job I hate that I had before I went to college, and have been unable to find anything, ANYWHERE.
I have always felt this is what my life was supposed to be though. And that I am supposed to end it.
Anyway, I’m looking for a quick, painless method. I’m thinking of hanging myself right now, but not sure where to do it at. I don’t want to donut at home because my little sister could find me and I don’t want that. There isn’t anywhere to jump from that’s high enough to ensure I will succeed. So any suggestions or help will be appreciated. Thanks.
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You’re right: it is your decision. And because of that, I wouldn’t feel right telling you exactly which method is painless and quick, although they DO exist. And they’re not that difficult. I’m heading out as soon as my supplies come through, I made my decision based on the methods outlined in “The Peaceful Pill” handbook, published by Exit International. You can download the pdf torrent from sites like ThePirateBay. I’m sorry life hasn’t worked out for you, but then again it hasn’t for a lot of us. But where there is a will, there is a way. Whatever you choose to do, end it or persevere, I hope you get what you want.
It is your decision, but you have to think about all of the consequences of your decision. including the fact that you will not be serving your purpose. INcluding the fact that you are robbing yourself of everything life has to offer, and no it won’t all be good.
If your mind is made up, atleast email me and tell me why. Your story may help me to help others before their mind is made up. Do you wish someone had found you first? I won’t lecture you. PROMISE.
mrslindseylambert@gmail.com