Make a change… kill yourself

Why couldn’t they put cyanide in my I.V when i asked them to when I was laying there with a shirt over my face, and an abundance of tubes hooked up to me, I wanted them off I was screaming, my heart was racing a million miles an hour, like it was gonna rip through my ribcage and chest cavity, I was screaming in pain, I was pissed, Pissed that I was alive…Pissed that, that SHOULD OF BEEN the heart attack that killed me, pissed that they never put cyanide in my I.V, why? why am I still here…because it’s not my time? then fuck you who decides this shit, I was fucked up, and ready for the moment where my heart stops completely, and they can fuck off with their shock paddles, leave me be let me die in this bed with the rest of this worthless world, everything around me was a disease, stench of repugnance from human slime all trying to help me stay alive, fuck you to those people, I would be dead right now and not have to suffer anymore of this garbage anymore, fuck the universe for not taking my worthless life, can’t fucking believe this shit JNSFJHA;KLDFGJAKLDNJLKjnlkJN;LKJLFKJ A’FDOGPKASER’GTAMELFm RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH