Malignant Eternal

help? (I’m not saying I don’t appreciate it, I do but..) I can’t get help, why? Many reasons, and here’s why…
First, they give you counseling with a combination of drugs such as anti-depressants, and do you know what pharmaceutical drugs are designed for? to keep you sick, and to only make you sicker, that’s how the industry works, keeping you sick, so you keep getting prescribed, so they keep getting profit. Do you know what counseling does? Nothing, absolutely no psychological help can utterly smash my morbid inhuman thoughts on this disgusting worthless life, I live in my own little world in which I have conjured up for myself, a place where I am god, and I destroy life as I please, altering any physical and mental self as I see fit, and to me this is more real then this “real life” we dwell in today, this repugnant cesspool of shit. Moving on…People say they will offer “help” but they don’t care, they don’t give a flying fuck about another person, this could be your best friend (I learned this so many fucking times), it could be your family member, doesn’t matter who it is, they don’t care about you, they don’t want to hear the person whine…because this “help” is imaginary in this world, it’s obsolete beyond reach of this reality, it is completely non-existent, if you can show me this help, then illuminate my path ov death.