My whole life, ive been picked on for my every flaw. For being to fat, then loosing weight and never eating always trying to confine to what the world sees as “perfect”. Ive tried cutting and im too *****, just another one of my damn flaws. Im only 15 and already resent the world in which im presented.
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Holy crap! I understand, EndlessFate. I’m currently doing a Senior Research Paper on bullying (Has to be 6 pages long or short). I have read so many sad stories..If it’s anything people aim at to bully, it’s usually Homosexuality, Weight, and abnormal (retardation, physical disabilities, Etc) kids.
I feel sorry for you. I shouldn’t say it since it’ll probably make you feel worse. But I’ve been there and back with my weight. To be honest, just 2 summers ago I dropped the title of “fat kid.” I stayed in most of my summer sleeping for 12+ hours. I ate enough to keep me up and about but never over-ate. Sometimes, I’d just sleep through eating by accident because no one EVER wakes me up (So I had to suffer at times! Some brothers and sisters I have. – -;)
My friends noticed I got skinny, but I have the stretchmarks to prove I was once a fatboy. I thought I was cute. I really thought I was skinny and perfect for my 7th-10th grade years. Turns out I was a little chubz. 🙂
I didn’t mind it. I really didn’t. I just never had anything to do (reservation live for us native americans is boring as HELL (no offense to any God/Jesus followers)).
I’m agreeing with what you’re saying, though. I do not like how people can get off on picking on other people. Sometimes, the bullies themselves are bullied. So in turn, they want the power that they don’t have which leads them to picking on others.
Hell, it’s usually the popular kids that bully. They know they can get away with it. So their probably the least expected by teachers/staff of committing such heinous crimes! Others are just followers of what other people do.
Now I need to tell you that you’re not the only one who’s been bullied, EndlessFate. We here at http://www.suicideproject.org understand pain. If there’s anything any of us understand, it’s hurt. Who hasn’t been hurt? But people like me are here to help you.
Life is terrible. I do not guarantee it’ll get better. I’m still waiting for my life to get better so I can leave my shitty hometown. I hope to be a musician or write someday. But fear I fear I may end up as a dead beat guy doing a job I’ll never enjoy (as seen in another topic).
Just keep going and see where it goes. I’m a ***** myself. I’ve always been terrified of cutting, also of heights, too!
But if you need someone to talk to, I’m here for you, pal.
E-mail: albert.j.robinson@live.com
Just tell me your situation and I’ll be sure to remember you! I have trouble remembering a lot of things so give me while if I don’t remember!
That’s the main reason why I feel suicidial myself. I was born with aspergers sydrome which automatically made me different to the world so your not alone. What the world sees as “perfect” is wrong and is used by the media to make money. In reality you are perfect as you are. We are all unique and different (wouldn’t it be boring if we were all the same?) and what the world doesn’t realise is that its needs people that are different to one another in order to survive. I went through HELL at 15, teenage years are always the most tough. Still now 5 years later I have not completely recovered from it. But remember that you are loved by many people such as family and friends.
Guys, these things get so much easier once you are my age. I used to weigh 426 pounds, and I’m now 220, female, so still not skinny. NO one cares anymore. Once you are my age, you may learn to careles about what other people think, and you will care more about what the people IN your life think. And the first step is to value yourself. I value you.. email me sometime. Honor me 🙂 mrslindseylambert@gmail.com
by the way ‘thecolourfulrainbow’ There are two VERY special boys in my life w/ asbergers. And they are beautiful, funny, and a million things that those w/o asbergers can NEVER be. Your asbergers make life more challenging for you socially, but it also makes you unique. And it gives you aspects of personality that I truly value. WIth my whole heart I value you. I wish you both would email me and keep me company. My daughter died 2 years ago, and I could use the company.