I’m so tired of my family making me feel like a freak for wanting to be alone. The other day my mom was asking me about why I don’t have a bf. I told her it’s because I just don’t want one. So then she goes into telling me how I’m 18 and that’s not normal and she goes up to my dad like “What’s wrong with her?” etc. She doesn’t understand that with SA/AvPD it’s really really really hard for me to talk to anyone and I feel I guess…safer when I’m alone. I don’t have to feel bad and depressed about the way I look and I don’t have to worry about having a panic attack or anything. I can just exist in peace. Being around other people makes me feel like an outsider….like I have the word freak stamped on my forehead.  I feel like a weird hideous creature so I just want to stay hidden away.
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Hey I know how you feel I dint date for 2 years and I love being buy myself there is nothing wrong with that and if it makes you feel better I am 18 to I really don’t like it when people come to me like that I am hear if u need me
Thanks. It’s nice to have at least one person that understands.
your welcome if you want u can email me and we can talk
Ok. That’d be cool.
aseibel92@gmail.com this is my email
Just asking, what’s SA/AVPD?
I know but one guy that truly understood people. His name was Jesus, he made a lot of his purpose on this life to go hang out with the freaks of society whom every one else ignored. He didn’t see them as freaks, he saw them as his children that he had made in his image. He wanted to know them and show them that he loved them. That means you sis, you don’t need a boyfriend, you however do need Him who alone can satisfy every desire and longing you have to be loved and understood. He alone that made you can understand you… He loves you so much, and it is because of him that I am responding to this as a fellow freak from society who once locked myself in my own room playing computer games with no self-esteem, never leaving because I was a total nerd and geek. He spoke to me…. and then I realized that it is okay to not be “cool,” it is okay to have issues and problems and vent to him.
Im hateing my reflection fighting mirror’s . Don’t want to go anywhere or be around anyone