i am 23. and i cant get this feeling out of me. i feel like i cant stop crying. i wanna die. its like nothing is working out for me and like i have nobody to talk to. i am married- not for very long either, yet it feels like my husband wants nothing to do with me now that we’re married. at work, my boss shouts and swears at me, and i am the only person doing all the admin work- i have constant pains in my neck from all the stress. then when i get home, i have to iron, pack lunch, make dinner, get ready for the next day, etc. and when i wanna watch a movie or spend time with my hubby, then i cant cause he is playing xbox. and i may not complain cause he has had a heavy day at work, or why am i complaining- i must get a hobby. i wish that i could not care and just do my own thing, but it hurts to know that my hubby doesnt even love me. my whole family expects me to fix everything, and i cant. i always have to worry about everybody, but nobody worries about me. i dont even have friends- all of the people i hang out with are my hubbies friends- i have always been shy and a loner so its difficult for me to make friends, but its like everytime i try to come out of my shell, its no use because nobody accepts me for who i am. everybody has their own click already. except me. how the hell do i fit in anywhere? i cant do this anymore. i wanna end it before this weekend.
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ok i have to say if u really love him thin u need to let him know how you feel so yall can be on the same page i would right him a letter saying that u love him and would like to have a few nights a week to spend together i would pour my heart out cuz thin he should get it. family remined them you are human and everything should not be all on you cuz your husband should take some of the heat to yall are in this together it not 10% to 90% it should be 50-50 so the family need realize it and do somethings on there own (i dont want to sound mean) and boss u should let him know that you dont like the yelling its not how people should act and its not right and the feeling of taking care of everyone else i think u should just go out buy your self and go to a spa and make him pay for it i think he should. ok well i hope this helps. plz dont end it cuz yall will get better life has to look up some time cuz looking down can get so boring
You want to kill a person? Stick a knife in their chest.
You want to torture a person? Feed their loneliness.
Fiend them from friendship, from peace..
that person will search everywhere..
And when they finally realize they will never find it,
they will destroy their self .