It’s become obvious that I am one major league fuck up. I want nothing to do with anyone any more. I am so sick of people liking me based on what i look like. I first tried to kill myself at age 14, i’m now 37 and still want to die. the only reason i am alive is people dependant on me. yet other people still stay i should stay alive because of how i look. so what, if i was butt ugly i should deserve to die? i effing hate that since being a kid i’ve only been liked because i supposedly look good. i’m sick of feeling like i have to please others all the time . sick of it. im out of here asap.