I’ve been thinking of committing suicide for almost 2 years now. and the thing that’s preventing me from doing is the thought of causing unbearable pain to my parents.They love me so much. I swear, their children mean the world to them. But as what other suicidals would say, I, too, am sick and tired of life. It’s pointless.
I don’t like who I am. I don’t like myself. I pity myself because I don’t like myself and no one else loves her but her parents. I feel bad for myself because I’m not strong enough to stand for myself, to fight for her life. But still, I don’t like myself. One lifetime and you don’t like yourself. Great.
I just had enough.
I’m 19 and I don’t want to continue this life anymore.
I know I can still live. I can still do things my family expect from me. But I swear, if I’d continue life with this weariness and SOULACHE, I’d have serious psychological problems.Â My mind couldn’t contain my emotions. I just want this to end. I want this to end.