i don’t know what to believe…who is there to blame?
could it be really his fault…no i don’t think so…its more like my fault
there are so many questions and no answers… i want to feel no pain and yet it seems that it is all i fee!
the only thing that brings me joy is art…and my parents are not supporting me on that….
if they don’t support me then who? i have no money, no job, how am i supposed to buy things?
i don’t think that there is a way to get rid of feeling….i don’t even know how to describe it…..
its a mixed emotion of anger and sadness
tell me how do i get rid of if for all eternity….
i know i can’t, yet i wish that i could feel something else…anything
envy, even but all i feel is indifference toward everything…its getting me worried…i don’t think is very normal….