Why am I still here? All this shit has gotten to me so many times in the past, I just cant handle it. Everytime I am in front of people, I fake a smile so they wont worry. Suicide would be so simple for me, for anyone. I wish I could just get away from them; the cause of my pain. I wish I could be someone else so I didnt have to deal with any of this… Ive fucked up enough, and I just want to be done… Every night I just cry myself to sleep, thinking how worthless I am to everyone. I cant bear to see myself anymore. Im scared of what will happen if i live… Im scared of what would happen if i was selfish enough to take my own life. I just have no idea what to do anymore.