Your First Time

It’s funny how so many things change after your first attempted in suicide 

You feel like an empty cup 

You surround your self with people 

Yet you feel like the only one there 

Your emotions disappear 

And you can no longer be normal 

You can no longer feel joy or happiness 

All you feel is emptiness and darkness

All you feel is pain 

You start cutting your self 

To feel alive 

And you’ll start learning 

That you should of died that day