Hey all, I know many people post here while in the throws of passion. Trust me, I’ve been there – the fitting music, the feeling of such despair and hopelessness that you projectile vomit your disgust in words, that only pain can relieve it.
However, I’d like to hear from some of the people who’ve made it through that stage. I’d like to hear from the people for whom the question of suicide has become more philosophical than emotional, the people who now calmly wait and plan for the big event. I’m still looking at over a month out, picked the end of January for a day, maybe February 1st, and hope there are some on here who have a more developed, detached stance on the act.
I’m the sort who hasn’t any friends, really, not because I’m unpopular, but because I just can’t put energy into the little social exchanges these days. I have a loving family whom I love very much – that love has kept me from checking out for years now, but the truth is love can’t do everything.
I’m especially interested in hearing the views of people with higher degrees, or anyone else who possesses the authority of age, experience, or other learning.
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so you are looking for someone whos tried it and failed ?
@ Life sucks thin u die,
No: I’m looking for someone who has invested more time and energy into his/her struggle than others. For my own personal journey through this strange life, I’m looking for people who have been coping with this problem for years. I’m hoping to learn why the homeless guy who pushes his cart full of shit up and down one of the main streets of my city day in and day out, while I’m more ready to die over the incongruencies between my living reality and my ideals of love and justice.
Any help would be appreciated.
DiminishingReturns- why do you call yourself that? I dont know you but by what you write it should be different because you are better. I can help. I im old enough to try to understand. Turns out everything is going to be ok. I know you dont want to hear that but it is true. That love that kept you alive was actually missing something: love for self. the reason that homeless guy is ok is because he finds value in himself, he doesnt allow the world to tell him what is and isnt socially perfect. Please message me back and tell me: what is just that terrible that you want to give up without giving yourself a chance? You should know by now that you are worth it and clearly the world sees that but you need a mirror to see it yourself.
Paz, Heiwa, Fred,
The Apache Girl
I have given a lot of thought to suicide in the last few years. I like to think of myself as an amateur philosopher. I personally agree with Nietszche on the subject: “there is a certain justice according to which we take a man’s life. But there is no justice by which we take his death. That is nothing but cruelty.”. So basically I try to look at the matter as a personal choice. Of course, people will be hurt by it. But if I have control over anything in this world, it is my life. Im not sure if I could ever kill myself, but I do deal with a lot of emotional pain from day to day, plus I basically just have a lot of interest in it from a psychological and philosophical standpoint.