I have attempted 3 times… hanging is bullshit… if you fuck up it takes so long to even pass out and pills dont work because they fuk with your mind and you end up warning people without meaning to…
I’m fed up with being invisible all the time and being cut down every time I stick my head up… Its pointless… there are 6,775,235,741 people in the world (so says google) and 70 million more are born each year and that not including increases by time… whats one person gone… we need less people.. the earth cannot sustain itself with the current exponential increase of human population.
but that’s just it, you are looking at yourself as if you are a pebble on a mountain. the fact is: without you something would be missing. someone who loves you or sees you or is your friend would hurt. what if they hurt so much that they ended their own life because you meant that much. not everyone is good at expressing their emotions so you prob have no clue as to how much you mean to people. you might think you are insignificant but what if one day (you dont know) you were meant to save a life, or love someone in pain? dont end just yet you never know when life decides to change for the better
dont be sorry at least you are honest 🙂 but people actually do care even if there is nothing given in return. you care enough to write me and i care about you even though i dont know you. no one knows i go on this site and i dont want to tell them. love for self is life and love for living is life. when you depend on others to give you love 100% then you might end up disappointed. you have to love yourself first.
then it just wasn’t meant to be. you might have loved her but if she didn’t love you back then the relationship was lost. but it is time that you start to pick yourself up, as i am sure she has, and go find yourself again. keep loving because if you stop you might not be looking out for the “one” and miss her
[quote]4 years… 4 fucking years, I almost worshiped her. she hurt me so much, then tossed me asside. she was my last hope…[/quote]
I know it makes no difference but for whatever it’s worth, I understand. I won’t belittle your feelings or imply that they’re any less valid than mine or anyone else’s, but I’ve been living a miserable life for a lot longer than you and it always makes me sad to see someone so young feeling like you do. If you refuse to fight through this, pay your dues, and log some years on this rock, there’s nothing anyone can do to change that but if you really mean to end your life, I suggest you sober up. It is simply not fair to make such profound decisions under the influence of drugs and/or alcohol. You owe it to yourself to do a good deal of thinking and come to a decision with a CLEAR MIND.
I will be gone soon but I hope you find an end to your pain. Good luck.
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being ok with yourself. don’t give up. why do you want to go?
I have attempted 3 times… hanging is bullshit… if you fuck up it takes so long to even pass out and pills dont work because they fuk with your mind and you end up warning people without meaning to…
what makes you think that you aren’t worth it?
I’m fed up with being invisible all the time and being cut down every time I stick my head up… Its pointless… there are 6,775,235,741 people in the world (so says google) and 70 million more are born each year and that not including increases by time… whats one person gone… we need less people.. the earth cannot sustain itself with the current exponential increase of human population.
I’m insignificant… so so insignificant
but that’s just it, you are looking at yourself as if you are a pebble on a mountain. the fact is: without you something would be missing. someone who loves you or sees you or is your friend would hurt. what if they hurt so much that they ended their own life because you meant that much. not everyone is good at expressing their emotions so you prob have no clue as to how much you mean to people. you might think you are insignificant but what if one day (you dont know) you were meant to save a life, or love someone in pain? dont end just yet you never know when life decides to change for the better
I dont know… I just feel that people care when they feel like caring… or when others think they should care… but noone actually cares…
I’m sorry if I dont make sense, i’m very drunk at th moment and im not reading bak on what I write..
whatever… I once believed that love was life… I was proven wrong.
how do i delete this post. im too much of an idiot to figure out how
dont be sorry at least you are honest 🙂 but people actually do care even if there is nothing given in return. you care enough to write me and i care about you even though i dont know you. no one knows i go on this site and i dont want to tell them. love for self is life and love for living is life. when you depend on others to give you love 100% then you might end up disappointed. you have to love yourself first.
4 years… 4 fucking years, I almost worshiped her. she hurt me so much, then tossed me asside. she was my last hope…
im only 21, but still I feel old. so much shit Ive had to fix… and I have nothing to show for it… Ive been used over and over… FUUUUCK
then it just wasn’t meant to be. you might have loved her but if she didn’t love you back then the relationship was lost. but it is time that you start to pick yourself up, as i am sure she has, and go find yourself again. keep loving because if you stop you might not be looking out for the “one” and miss her
Im gonna go now… I may be back… I dont know if I want to be her or not, its so confusing..
cya
good luck!
[quote]4 years… 4 fucking years, I almost worshiped her. she hurt me so much, then tossed me asside. she was my last hope…[/quote]
I know it makes no difference but for whatever it’s worth, I understand. I won’t belittle your feelings or imply that they’re any less valid than mine or anyone else’s, but I’ve been living a miserable life for a lot longer than you and it always makes me sad to see someone so young feeling like you do. If you refuse to fight through this, pay your dues, and log some years on this rock, there’s nothing anyone can do to change that but if you really mean to end your life, I suggest you sober up. It is simply not fair to make such profound decisions under the influence of drugs and/or alcohol. You owe it to yourself to do a good deal of thinking and come to a decision with a CLEAR MIND.
I will be gone soon but I hope you find an end to your pain. Good luck.