 hello all my name is megan,
 i wanna help. i been thur so much in my life where all i wanted to is give up! it all started in 2002 month of april change my life forever! my mother sat me and my brother down we knew something was wrong because of the cops where still at my house all 5 of them.i remember it like it was yesterday. my mother was crying so hard i didnt think she could talk.. i knew this was so hard for her to tell her kids what was going on. she said i quote ” ur father has commited suicide” my heart droped out off my body on to the floor. me and one of my brother started to cryyy we didnt want to believe it! my oldest brother was pissed he never showed  weakness in his lifeeee he was in raged with anger! my father commited suicide at my church. my sunday school teacher found him! no note or nothingggg.. from there my life was hell . we just got a new house that friday him and my mother signed the papers and he killled himself that sunday a month later they were tryingg to take our house from uss! all because of this .. my mother fought to keep ourr houseee she had to put another downpayment and signed the paperss again! we went with her to the office she cryed. she missed my father sooo much. to make things wrost. my father motherrr aka( my grandmother) blame my mother and us kids . she hated us sinceee.. to put a cherrry on top of the wrost thing in my life! so the only family i had was my mother her parents her brother and his wife and there kid … i had gotten depression .. it was so bad it hurt my chest and my side it killed me .. i would lock my self in the bathroom in sooo muchhh pain and cryyy there been times were my family took me to the er. they put me on antidepession pills which after reading the side affects it can incress the suicde rate she wouldnt allow me to take them.. she tryed a diff. way she waited till ill have another attack she held me tryed to calm me down. she would talk to me she let me tell her wat was going on in my mindd … she cryed with me .. she hated seeing me the was i was! every hoilday it gets harder. we try to put up the christmas tree u… but we both would burst in tears … im 20 years old now.. and i still feel the same wayy people say it getts better withen time… from what i been thur .. it doesnttt we have to find what makes us happy! and my momma is what makes me happy she my hero she is always there for me. no matter what.. im not looking fww to having to tell my kids the truth bout there grandfather.. which i believe the truth will set everyone free there for im not going to lie to them.. i know my father body wont be there when i get married but i always know hes next to meeeeee. i kn0w hes watching out for us! i feel his presents all the time. and the day he shall ever show upp i willl not be scared i just miss him sooooo muchhhh……
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untimely death.
regrets.
worries.
keeping a spirit wandering in the limbo world and this material world.
Ghost has varied forms.
One of the ways to detect the presence of one of its forms is the needle movement of a small compass stationary on the desk or on the ground.
If a ghost comes near, the needle moves.
A normal person without any metal on body, will not affect the needle at all.
If can move the needle a tiny bit, like 1.5 degrees, the person has some malignant alien bodies, (like virus and bacteria), already effected the body chemistry and own neutral magnetic field.
To talk further, only if you can verify that you’re not imagining things.
i dont image it! i seen my past family we even have a pic of my greatgrandma in the skys looks just like her.. my family has a stronggg connection.. evertime i been in a near death exp. i feel some one pulling me backkkk! i love ittt.. im not scareddd.. i will never be scareddd
What you said about your father never showing weakness touches a nerve in me. I have 2 kids (technically 4, but that’s another story) and I’ve tried (not always with success) to never show weakness, never show that I can be beaten. I HAVE to be the strong one whom always survives. I hate that obligation.
I dunno. I dont think I said anything more helpfull than the crazy guy talking about ghost meters (I think). Sorry.
Meganjolee,
I understand that.
Of what you said, I believe.
Sometimes the debt is not settled even after death.
To rest a soul that’s living and the soul of the dead, some unique measure may have to be taken. Since I don’t think you are up to do it on your own, I’d say get help from the professional, a medium.
The soul from the limbo world is like from a portal, a hole so small even naked eyes can’t see. The suction through this hole is like vacuum from a vacuum cleaner. And I call it a black hole. That’s why people may feel cold when a ghost is around. And people just call that negative energy. Actually it’s our energy being drawn through to the other dimension. A normal human just can’t withstand this long term energy drawn without getting sick in the body and mind.
Since the dead and the living belong to different worlds, you have to seek solution to break this unrealistic bond of seemingly living together. So the dead can move on to a better world, and the living can also live like a human does !
i maybe selfish but i dont wanna get rid of it! i love my family beging around me! i believe in we can go back to fix what we leftt some ways some how!
@fireflieslite: I don’t understand much about the whole “ghost” and “other dimension” phenomenom things, but I always find it to be very interesting and invokes my curiosity.
You seem to be quite knowledgeable (or expert?) in this area,
if you don’t mind, can I ask for your email address?
I have further interesting curious questions to ask you.
thank you.
As for my stand in this whole “ghost” and “other existence” thing,
though I’m just an ordinary human with no expertise nor experience in it,
I think it’s really just a common sense (and also an open-mind attitude) to acknowledge that this Universe is so vast, complex and mysterious, that there’s still so much we still don’t know about, and I believe it is MORE than what eyes (or other five senses of ours) can see/sense.
to say that “this Physical/Material existence is ALL that be” is IMO just way too immature conclusion, and quite frankly, a bit naive and egocentric know-it-all, which would only hinder our progress in exploring the vast mystery of Universe.
niki,
I didn’t have good experiences making friends here.
Once messaging through the emails, I tend to tell all I know in order to help as a friend, when they say they are weird and extremely open-minded to things. Nevertheless I told so much that they just couldn’t handle, and stopped emailing me.
But one thing remaining good, is that almost all of them left this site thinking of themselves just being too normal to stay along with weirdos like me here.
And the only one I’m still contacting is that she has personal experienced the unexplained, so she wouldn’t be scared of me at all.
And we’d better be communicating here, as if a barrier to avoid my falling too deep in.
Meganjolee,
there are many people placing their beloved ashes inside the house, and I just couldn’t say out loud that they are simply creating themselves a haunted environment.
The term of ashes to ashes just doesn’t apply there.
Without peace to the dead, along with disturbance to the living.
And I only know that ghosts are those who like to remain just trying to fix what they couldn’t while alive.
Fireflieslite if you need someone to talk to that will keep emailing you i will i still talk to a lot of people from this site
Meganjolee i also have a parent that killed them selfs but mine did it august the 4 of this year so i know that pain ever sinse thin my sisters and i have not really talked so i can say i feel hated buy them
im sorry to hear that … but tthe truth is .. it wont get betterrr! but it makes us strongerrrr.. inside and outt!
life sucks thin u die,
Thanks. I’ll keep you in heart.