Cutting doesn’t even seem to hurt anymore. but watching myself bleed is the second best part. I try to talk to my friends, but they all don’t understand and they say there are “healthier” methods. Nothing else works except drugs. But my parents have started searching my room everyday. I wish I was never born. I hate feeling, I hate showing feelings. I’d rather not exist than feel. Except pain, pain is a feeling. But such a fascinating one. I have numerous scars. Words written on my hand and thigh. all me cherished memories of cutting and the sense of release and pain. I want to relieve every one of those moments over and over again.
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If you don’t feel it, how can you can comment about it?
Ahaaa…
Got your attention now didn’t I? An alien from a different planet cannot simply say, air tastes like nothing without first experiencing it, am i wrong?
I cut myself for the first time in January. Recently, I’ve been doing it more and more. It’s strange how it stops hurting after the first few cuts, isn’t it? Then the stress or sadness that propted you to do it is gone, leaving either numbness or pleasure or both. At least that’s my experience. Best wishes friend.
it is weird how it goes away, but now it gives me a sense of relief. Knowing I can control something about myself, and it numbs all the pain i feel.