I am a 49 year old man who has had the worst year of my life. I am suffering from depression and even thou I am getting help it is not working. I see someone every other week and also take two types of depression meds. 2010 has been the worst year of my life. My wife of 13 years left me in June. She was the love of my life. I was so in love with her I would of done anything for her. I never cheated on her. And as time went on she became more pretty to me. I loved her so much and just would look at her and think I was so lucky to have her as my wife. She left me because she did not want to deal with my depression. I have not gotten over her and now it is the end of December. I just lost my job on December 27 and that is the final straw. Nothing I have done this year has brought me a positive response. I could go on for hours but I will not. The pain is so bad I just want to end my life so I do not feel the pain anymore. I am a very scared and confused man. I do not know who to turn to for help. My parents who I love just doe’s not understand what I am going through. My two brothers also do not understand depression. My sister is the only one I can talk to and understand how I feel but that is not enough for me to get better. I do not know who to turn to. I need help or I feel I will end my life to end the pain. Thanks for taking the time to read this.