Well, another day goes by and another day thinking about suicide to relieve the pain. I try to move forward but no matter how hard I try I just cannot. What happen to that saying when one door closes one will open? I feel like all doors keep closing on me and I am in a cold, dark room with no way out. No one seems to understand how I feel. I am not looking for a free ride from my family I just want a chance to restart my life and get on the right track. I am so scared, confused, and alone.