I have GAD, which is short for Generalized Anxiety Disorder. I have never been diagnosed: my mother calls it Paranoia, and my father doesnâ€™t call it anything.
I worry about everything. About nothing. I canâ€™t stop it. I want to.
I have tried therapy, but it is too hard for me. I am too introspective and feel the need to justify everything I think or do. I donâ€™t want anyone to judge me. And so I never got anything from therapy. Whenever I talk to my boyfriend he just reminds me that I have an anxiety disorder. And my friends all push me to the therapist. No one wants to hear me talk. No one listens.
I am so alone.
I am worrying right now that none of you will understand.
I have reached the end of my rope. I donâ€™t know what I should do.