This note is to Kerry Ranney♥ R.i.P
i never really thought about death.
i’v thought about how much pain it would cause a person.
…..i wonder how much pain you have to feel,
how many tears you have to cry,
how many trys of overdosing,
how many hart breaking memories, that replay in ur mind.
not feeling enough love.
Everyday i look at ur pictures, && wonder. why.
&& could i of stoped you.
talked you out of it,
could i prevented it?
anything?
Everyday those questions run thou my head.
Butt Kerry im not mad, im just happy for yu..i guess.
I hope all ur pain is gone.
and ur having all the fun,
in ur new heaven.
iLoveyou kerry.
&& i miss you more than i can explain.
[iFuckingmissYouSOmuchKerry]
its still me && you Fighting the world together,
[ilov3yuKerry] ♥
&& it wasn’t you’r time to leave
[My world has no color without yuu.]
[.iLov3yuu.]
Kerry♥
[yuu are like the peanut to my butter]
🙁
[.iMissyuuSOmuch.]
2 comments
im really sorry. i cant imagine what it would be like to look a best friend… ive only really lost family.
i lost my little cousins when he was only 5, and my older cousin who i had loves and amired my whole life when she was only 20 (last year) and i know they were the hardest times of my life and i still think about them everyday and it fucks me up inside to think that i didnt say enough, or appriciate them or whatever. so if your going to through anything like what i was, and im sure your going through more, then i am so sorry, and i wish there was something else i could say, but i just hope you get through this okay 🙂
I am sorry for your loss. it sounded like a special friendship,
,you should keep persevering. as you will feel better in time.. & you must choose the right path for your healing..
i am sure that allot of people that are still here would love to have and would need your friendship. as i can tell you are kind,
and a good friend to have..
you must have allot of people around you that love you. .if not than I am sure there is allot of people around you that would want your love.
if there are any thoughts of suicide, than this is normal.. as you both sounded close.and would be anybody’s natural thought.
but i just want to point out, that i know you would not want anybody (loved ones, friends etc) to know this kind of loss and suffering you are experiencing right now .. which is what they will experience if you were gone also which would in turn make this even worse.
it will get easier, you are grieving at the moment and you must grieve, healthily. it is natural that you must grieve in your own way, get it all out and don’t hold nothing in…this is the process of healing.
and when the time comes, you MUST let go and sincerely say goodbye..
as life goes on. and people are still here in the world. writing. thinking, contemplating..
We all have a choice. I guess it is a fact of if we make the right one. This is up to the individual..
let your love and your suffering make you stronger..
I hope some of these words help, again I am sorry for your loss.
thank you for sharing your letter, it was a privilege to read.
Stay well.