my name is Suzy and ive been with my boyfriend for about 3 years now. i have a feeling that he is cheating on me but he keeps saying hes not. i have very low self esteem  im very jealous and protective of him. i hate him talkin to any other girls besides me… i dont know if thats normal its just the way i am. well hes in the army and does drill once a month… and i have a feeling that this girl named kelly is trying to hook up with him when hes there.  i check his email and facebook and see messages between them that make me wonder.. i love my boyfriend to death and i dont want to lose him. but the more he does this the more clingy i get and the more he pushes away…we dont even have sex anymore which makes me think hes doing it with her.. i dont know what to do.. theres no way i could leave him.. i dont want to be alone and i dont want to start over.. ive been so depressed and suicidal for the past 2 weeks and i just want to find a way out.. can someone please tell me how to kill myself painlessly and quick and make it look like an accident??
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it seems like your a sweet caring person. love has a way of driving us all crazy at times. I was in the same boat as you are. when my wife split up with me I felt like it was the end of the world, like there was nothing that could make me happy again. I was driving down the highway one day and just said the hell with it all drove off an overpass and woke up in the truck amazed to find not even a scratch on me. I could not believe what I had done. I too am jealous about her talking to guys on her facebook they allways leave comments on her page refering to her how hot she is it drives me crazy. please do not do anything to yourself because i know right now it is hard to understand this but there is someone out there that loves you so much and it would effect them for the rest of there life if you where to do something to yourself. love heals all just find the right guy. its hard to find that right person but when you do its well worth all the dirtbags. continue to be a beautiful person inside and out and love will be at your doorstop!
don’t throw your life away like that. you might hear this a lot but you need to believe how amazing you are on your own two feet that is what brought him to you in the first place. here are the two scenarios: he’s cheating on you- you get your stuff and leave and never look back because there are bigger and better things out there. he’s not cheating- you make up your mind if he is worth it then get out of the house and have a girl’s day out. you need some “me time” first. just hang on a bit dont give up on yourself.
i dont know how old you are but i am a 21 year old female and i am the same way as you.. i act the same way with my current boyfriend, the more he drifts away the closer i pull him which just pushes him further and further away. i understand where you are coming from by wanting to keep him closer to you and protecting your relationship from him cheating or him leaving but it just seems to make the situation so much worse.. he is more likely to leave you because you are too clingy and forcing him to be so so close to him when maybe he just needs that space, and maybe that space is what will keep you guys together longer… i think i have a lot in common with you and instead of killing yourself, try and talk to me and we can ***** about our boyfriends together! i think we could offer good insight to each others situation that we cant see on our own.. hope to hear from you!
thank you guys. this means alot to me.
HopeForMe my email is suzyquex@aim.com please email me. if anyone else wants to talk u can email also 🙂