I want to cut and die

Anae,
I was in a skiing trip in Austria, and met a one and only Finnish girl.
Me and my skiing buddy an English boy were all drooling upon talking to her.
She was so sweet, so soft, so pretty, so nice, although her English so poor, still fun talking in the lounge with her for 20 minutes, until her older brother came along like an eagle, and hurried and insisting her back to her room upstairs.
And that has been an unforgettable experience.

Finland is so remote, but rather a kind of mystery to me.
It’s at the farthest north of Europe.
Even the huge humpbacks travel there, fascinating, have you seen one with their swimming backstroke like a baby waving as if hello with their long fins like hands ?

Aren’t there saunas almost in every house ?
Why don’t you take it as a therapy for yourself ?
Especially it’s so cold now, must be all covering in snow.
The Finns might have been keeping good blood circulation with their hot sauna and their plunging into cold water to keep their heart strong and mind fresh.

The gymnasium you talked about, is it a school teaching hall ?
Or is that a very small school nearby a small village in which you’re living ?

Your teacher was mad of you not attending class, may be just the reason of her self-esteem.
Some teachers don’t care you’re bright or scoring high, as long as you attend her class, some’ll even give you open-book test or giveaway marks, to prove their effective teaching results.
The attendance might just be good enough of showing respect to her assumed valuable teachings.
Sometimes standing in her shoes to see what she wants is a must, and see if you are up to compensate of what she asks for, problems might then be solved.
The tactics to deal with a stubborn teacher sometimes is to soften her down with praise and with your lady-like plead, enough to let her fly with her featherly wings with boosting on her self-esteem.
Just a matter of treating her right and in return she treats you right. A win-win situation.
It’s like sharing your joy by saying hello to a total stranger, if she is decent enough she’ll respond, and if not, you’re still fine, she stays her way, and you go your own way.
Although some are prejudice, and jealous of the bright, then you should put your parents up front to complain.
However parents may be stupid enough even stupefying their children, and you should brace yourself to stand up to your rights speak up and fight for it.
Be the one that righteously stand with pride is always better than being an ostrich buried in sand.

The last resort. Complain to the board of education, that this teacher, of her words and behavior all those against you, was the direct cause to your depression, your self-harming, resulting missing classes.
(And of course, evidences of materials, witnesses, and other probable victims though are required to suffice)