i dont know who i am anymore. and it scares me. i know who i want to be. and i know who i pretend to be, but somewhere along the way ive lost who i actually am.
ive made really dumb decisions. really dumb.
ive slowly but surely lost all my best friends, and as they went my new friends came. but i loved my old friends. they knew the me before all this. they knew the me that was popular, pretty, fun, the me that everyone else wanted to be.
my new friends, they only know the me that has no confidence. no courage. the pathetic me. the me i hate.
and my family… my family dont know me at all. but then who really does. i sure dont.
what is this? this life? where does it go? what does it achieve? even the greatest people, the heros, the legends, all they did was improve the lives of the human race and the earth. but if everyone dies, and spends there lives trying to make they next lives better, then where does it go? why does the universe need humans?
the world is like the game ‘The Sims’. its pointless and after youve wasted hours playing it you realise that there was so much you could have done instead.
i dont mean this to say that everyone should kill themselves, im just saying its a good question… why the fuck are we here.
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i dont know why we’re here but i would like to. idk why but i’ve changed a lot too and i’m not sure i like who i’m turning into. and i love my family but they dont get me.. they’re all country and redneck and into taylor swift and i’m goth and emo and depressed and into bullet for my valentine. so if you ever need me just e-mail me carissaporter95@gmail.com
No one knows why we were put on this earth. Not try to get all religion on you, but what I believe is that God put every each and one of us on here for a reason, and we have to find out what that reason is.
As of trying to find out who you are, think of some things you like to do. if its sports or writing or just something simple, do it. When you do stuff you like to do, you find out more and more about yourself.
I would say try to get back in touch with your old friends, I know it’s not easy but even a simple “hi.” could start a friendship back up again.