Life will only hit with you what you can handle…. Right? Wrong! The world seems to push people down then drown them. Funny how most begg to live. While some beg for death at every turn. I will live untill I am done with what needs to happen.
Thinking on all this I wonder were my soul might go. Another life? Hell? Will I be found? What will they think?
I hope I can say that in my death one person will smile and wish me luck. While life drowns me I will wait. I need to be sure of one thing first. Then the darkness that comes for us all will be welcome in my heart.
Oddly I have cryed more in two days then I ever have. I’m just …. I can’t help but cry a lil more.
Nikiy
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I felt like you 10 years ago..i jumped to a train ..i lost my 2 legs and i got a wheel chair for 1 year..what happend? 2 years later i met the best man i ever knew..he loved me no matter what…we have a wonderful life together..we have a plan in life..just wait four yours..don’t rush
Sometimes, I wish I could cry. But unfortunately, I almost never become emotional enough to do it.
i couldnt stop crying the other day when i post my last post thats why its so fucked up so ya i know what u mean but do have to say if your not dead than you can handle what life throws at u
I really try..nobody is better than you!!
Earlier on yesterday I found out a dear friend of mine was killed and I miss him so. He kept me safe and just wanted to help people. Later on in the night I got a call from his gf (she was suicidal when she met my friend) she told me she was sorry and that she was 3 months prego. She tried to hang up the phone but didn’t and I sat and had to hear the who thing as she shot herself. I begged her to live at lest long enough to let the baby live. I couldn’t help her and I cryed myself to sleep, only to be torchered by nightmares of what I heard. I hope they found each other in the next life.