Today., for the first time in about 4 months, i stopped taking my meds. Only a couple hours off of them and i feel like im gonna go crazy.Â Im 13. Ive been taking these meds since i was 7. I started cutting when i was 9. My parents had divorced recently and i decided that it was all my fault and that i should just die. take a great burden off my parents shoulders. but i wasnt ready yet. i wanted to wait until i was older. so i stayed with cutting, burning, and the occasional breaking my bone on purpose. I think it made them hate me more. making them have less money paying for medical bills. Tonight was the first time i tryed to kill myself. I shouldnt have told my friends about this. sending all of them good bye texts. with-in the hour about 300 kids from my grade and school came to my house. thank god my mom wasnt home. she would have noticed something. they all saw me jump off the roof. at that moment my best friend ,jake, caught me. i got out of his arms and slapped him hard across the face. Jake , hannah, olivia, and ryan all stayed and tryed to get me come out of my room. jake came in.Â i wanted to really die. i hated him. and before he could do anything. i stabbed myself in the stomach. im in the hostpital now. my friends spilled everything to my parents and the docotors. im on suicide watch for the next 2 weeks. the day i get out is the day im gonna kill myself. so, good bye. if you wanna talk me out of it go ahead.