i used to look forward to this day for weeks. i used to get excited and be over caring and friendly (because your meant to at christmas i guess) but what was it all worth, if now christmas feels like just another day in the sad lonely life of a teenager.
now that all those good christmas’ are dead and gone, all that they have achieved is giving me a memory, and great memory, and a memory that makes this christmas so much worse.
they say every cloud has a silver lining. but what if i dont want the fucking silver lining or the cloud. cant i just have a clear blue sky? no sun. no clouds.
the way i see it, the more good you get in life only makes the bad so much worse.
so maybe im pesamistic, but i think here im allowed to be.