Life is hard for everyone but for some people its a whole lot harder. I suffer from severe depression and have done on and off for the last 3 years now. The thought of dying scares me but the thought of living scares me more. The worst part of this awful illness is people do not understand which leaves you feeling so alone. People look at me and wonder what I have to be so down about….I have great friends, am very attractive and seem to have alot going for me from an outsiders perspective but I’ve always felt very different. Nowadays the only thing that gets me though the day is the thought of dying, then all this pain will come to an end but I know it will destroy those close to me even though they find me hard to deal with so I’m in a no win situation….I hate feeling so low, it really is the worst feeling ever.