I’m feeling suicidal. People keep telling me “you can do it” (handling the depression and suicidal thoughts), but what if I don’t want to handle it? What if I don’t “want” to do it? My life is a train wreck, and although I might be able to put it back together, I just don’t want to. I’m tired. I miss my old life. I’m sad, so sad. And lonely.
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I am much like you right now, sometimes I feel ver low and depresssed and I am on antidepresssants but still I have the suicidal thoughts.
Have ever taken antidepressants?
They tell you to handle it. Handling is the same as just holding it over you head. I tell you to break it, destroy your depression, rip it apart. Become what you want no matter what any mother fucker says to you. You can do anything, become anything. Antidepressants work, but if you do not find the something to live for, the something that starts the fire in you body, you can take antidepresse for a while. If you lonely make friends, I am not saying it is easy but it is a start. Make friends online, chat online first. When you start feeling large amounts of depression go do what you like, games, sports, juggling. My thing to live for is I can not let my friends die. I have seen to much death, so I will do all I can to stop it. You, tell me more about you.
In a nutshell, lost my job of 18 years, my relationship of 16 years, two friends died, lost my house, pet died, living in apartment I hate, all in a very short time. Getting older, crap career prospects, money running low. No motivation, no interests. I’ve been seeing a pscyh and a therapist, on ADs for months with no results. I was outpatient at a hospital program for a month and it got me out of the house but no real progress. I’m so scared all the time and lonely, all I can do is think about my old life which I miss terribly. Nothing seems to help snap me out of this. If anything is for my benefit only, it just doesn’t seem to matter. I guess I don’t love myself, but I don’t know how to do that either.
@dylan: try google “wishcraft”, and the first link click there, it’s an eBook you can download all the chapters there for free, please read ’em (might as well, if you have plenty of time right now..), hopefully it can (& will) open up your mind.
I hate sounding very cliche, but sometimes our seemingly ‘bleak’ and ‘hopeless’ situation can all really due to our current mindset only.
Change the mindset, and perspective,
and you might change EVERYTHING that NOW you think seems ‘hopeless’ etc.
It’s like the yacht/boat that sails, and all you need to do is just to fix the steer direction, and then *slowly but surely*, even without u knowing it sometimes, everything has changed into better.
Maybe this is why there ARE those once-depressed and suicidal folks/individuals who come here and said things like “trust me, it will get better”, “just hold on for one more day, week, year..”, “Life is full of surprises and unexpected things you never thought before”, “Life is worth living for”, etc.
Might be worth to TRY first (and really give it ALL out from you, like Asmodeus said above),..before you choose the no-turning-back path, that is, Death.