really tired and …

feeling really tired about a month…
feeling really suicidal since my age is 12…
(my age is currently 16)
always were said “i don’t want to live” to God.

the last tree year were good and still but i was really asoical and currently i am in social place and school.

Basically, i can’t play football, i can’t help my mother, i can’t speak english much more, i can’t have a friend in native way, i can’t make me understant someting and i can’t make you understant.

I love to be sad, i can’t be happy… and i don’t have really good friend even i love all girls in the world…

I can be live in hell, becuse i can cry all the time and i can make dreams still and the friends that i love will be heaven…

I don’t want to find friend, becuase i can’t think what if i did something wrong and i can’t say you misunderstant i was wanted to to…

I were not know how to beat someone, they did everything and i just cried in way. I were right, because i didn’t do something and i can’t do.

this is my word, i said to someone

If you don’t know how to use car
then you can’t make car accident

trying to find suicide method since my age is 12…

and no one knows that…