..I am no one,
but then again ‘I’ or ‘We’ can never be i am or that..we are everything and nothing
if i may speak in conventional terms than allow me to introduce my self ..
IÂ am a male 25 year old Turkish Cypriot who lives in the uk, i am as they say a “tragic romantic”..a true Goth at heart but i just don’t look like one..a walking contradiction who doesnâ€™t make any sense in an insane and absurd world.
IÂ am a hardcore Nihilist which wasn’t my choice at all,this has caused me allot of pain throughout my life..Â think that i have always sensed knowing about Emptiness and sheer Nothingness of everythingÂ from birth all through my life which puts one in a state of extreme isolation and gives one a clear view and understanding ofÂ life’s purposelessness
my life and myself has just been one gigantic fuck up! which i see no point in writing about here, i tried to commit suicide once when i was 16 but did not succeed due to my inexperience and fucked up severely.
i sometimes think it is a miracle that i have reached 25… i wish to eventually end my life by my own hands. which i sense is coming soon, i listen to allot of different types of music black metal mostly,Gothic, i love Super Bikes, Women, Shemales, i practice Muay Thai, Ninjutsu, and do allot of other shit to pass the time.
iÂ don’t know what else to write as it will be gone & forgotten in a few posts anyway.
i come to this site which is just a black hole.. and it makes me even more depressedÂ as i read what people are going through or have been through and i cant do shit to help.
i am no one special,Â i am just another mediocre human being who should never have been fucking born.
Human Garbage if i may. Nothing,Becoming more and more pathetic and losing my dignity,
..Emptiness Of Inherent Existence..the nature of all phenomena..~~Gautama Buddha~~