I can’t fucking stand every day I have to deal with shit. Nobody seems to help or wants to really help and those who do just say “It’s going to get better”. It can’t get better. Some shit can’t be healed just like that. Some can’t be healed at all. And right now it’s like a dagger being slowly pushed into my chest deeper every day.
I’m completely stuck here between killing myself and letting go of all of this for the sake of my own being, or keeping a few select people from hurting because of it. I really can’t decide, I don’t know what I can do from here. My life is in fucking pieces, and I really can’t do much about it. Self-termination is a right, I want people to know that. And right now it’s the only thing I look forward too.
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i totally agree
especially with your 2nd paragraph….
idk
and how old r u?
im 12
15 over here. Just lost someone who I put all my trust in, got backstabbed by two of my best friends and now I’m trying to force myself to be content with loneliness.. Fun times.
awww srry
yea…i lost some one who i trusted to..he totally lost it on me and i told him everything………so whatever
my bffs told everyone at school about me and suicide……..
im here xD
whats ur name?
im Celia
i agree with you everyday is like another day of torchure. And everyday planning another way to diee. !
I’m Martin Truscott, I live in Edmonton AB Canada and yeah, I’ve been suicidal for a few years but it’s never been this bad… >_>
hey Martin
Celia, from Mass
and yea…i get it….same here
but my parents dont get it…so i dont have anyone to talk too…..but idk…..does it matter?
In all seriousness I don’t trust any of my friends so I really don’t either… I just vent shit out from here or on facebook. At least I get some serious answers here and I can actually connect with people. Fuck..
Also holy crap, I play piano and I write stories too… lol.
weird…..can u show me some stories?
aww ikr, im the same way…im scared if i tell my friend something, theyll tell someone and itll make it to my parents…..
im just here cause you ppl get me xD
I just do a bunch of nerdy fanfictions and videos on youtube in flight simulators… it’s not much but it keeps me occupied lol.. If you met me you’d find out I’m kinda a giant nerd on the inside xD
lol
thats cool
but im kinda nerdy too……….kinda, in a way everyone is arent they?
hey email me
isthereanyhopewellsurvive@yahoo.com
Lol same.. at least it’s good to know you’re not the only one who feels like that..
do u have any siblings?
No, I’m an only child, thank god.. I really despise both my parents and I’d much rather live on my own..
awww
well…i have a really annoying older sis….
i threatened to run away……
my parents are just “concerned” yea right……….
I know my mom’s a mentally unstable *****, I don’t talk to her unless I seriously have to.. My dad pretends to care but he has no idea what the hell I’m ever talking about.. I only have one friend who really seems to give a shit about me in any sense of the word and I can’t bring myself to trust her… I’m just so paranoid about everything it’s scary to live.
ikr
same here……..
my mom’s a drunk but wont accept it…..my dad and her r always fighting…..my sister and parents r always fighting……
btw…did u c the email i posted bout me?
(they didnt help wit that)
Yeah I saw that… I get the same shit. People always talk about me behind my back, and it’s easy to justify my point that I can’t trust anyone I know. It’s horrible… People should fucking ridicule other human beings for being at all “different”, I think that’s bullshit. I don’t even know why I’m different… It’s because I’m smarter than most of them or some shit I don’t care about, it’s just ignorant people who decide to leave out some people, and then go apeshit when they kill themselves over it. >_> Oh, a wonderful society we live in..
well said xD
i really like you
i can relate to you a lot……i like your sarcasim
can you please email me??
i think we could be good friends….
I use sarcasm alot… lol… my email is spitfire@halodemomods.com (told you i was a nerd >_>)
lol
kk
ill email you now xD
there i did it xD
its short and to the point
😛
that is a freakin creepy smiley face xD the site shoud fix that