I havent been on here in a long time. remember when I used to log in and there were only a 100 or so posts. I am feeling lost but working through it. Either going off to ksu for my degree, finding someone to get married to, or just going off and becoming a priest for the guarantee that I will always feel needed and useful. I don’t know who here will understand since i no longer want to kill myself the way i used to. I just lost my gf because i was an asshole to a girl who never once made me feel horrible. lost anyone have any guidance?
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learn and move on. this life is all about self improvement towards the unknown, enjoy it, embrace ads many opportunities as u can and experience everything. its nice to see, on a website filled with the air of defeat that there is a life beyond it and there is hope of a better tomorrow.
i lost the best guy i had. he was fucking awsome
I lost the only guy I’ve ever truely loved almost a year and a half ago. One of those “the One” type deals. Nothings been the same since. I was more suicidal before him but more active about it after. Now I just cut a lot and I’ve pretty much ruined my college career because I couldn’t cope with it (on top of other things).
My advice…God. The only time I ever felt good since him was when I was really close to God. He was all I had left after the breakup since I had planned my life around my ex. Those first three months after were actually the best of my life. I just poured myself into everything that I thought would bring me closer to God and it did and I was really REALLY joyful for a while…but of course I was still freshly burnt and I fell for a friend of mine which tore me away from the relationship I had been building with Papa(as I like to refer to the Man upstairs) and things have been progressively worse ever since. So there it is…God. And keep that your first priority no matter what.
And forgive my personal whining. I’m sorry for your loss though…I know the feeling.
Everything happens for a reason. You may have lost your girlfriend because your future wife might be coming around the corner. God has His plans for you, and they are BIG. Ask God for His guidance and He will lead you.