I havent been on here in a long time. remember when I used to log in and there were only a 100 or so posts. I am feeling lost but working through it. Either going off to ksu for my degree, finding someone to get married to, or just going off and becoming a priest for the guarantee that I will always feel needed and useful. I don’t know who here will understand since i no longer want to kill myself the way i used to. I just lost my gf because i was an asshole to a girl who never once made me feel horrible. lost anyone have any guidance?