Too much of everything?

So, so alone right now..

I’m trying to deliberately spend the christmas break alone… mostly because I have too many outside issues to deal with to have a life right now. I’m scared to go outside. Everyone seems to be against me. And even still, when i’m trapped inside, there are too many voices in my head and too much problems in my life to keep me sane… I’m caught here and it’s a long way out…