I know it is so selfish to take your life at the holidays…but today, Christmas, has only confirmed to me, even more, that I cannot do this anymore…I have no desire to live. There is no point to live. I know I am making everyone around me crazy with how miserable I am, it would be so much easier if I was not here…maybe then I could be at peace. Peace…what a word. I really don’t think it exists anymore. I have heard my entire life about peace…but there is no such thing.
I don’t want to do anything anymore. I am tired of fighting, dreaming, school, faking it all the time.
My first attempt failed…and again, i know it is wrong to do this at the holidays…but I just have no desire to go on anymore.
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my best friend committed suicide in November. No matter how terrible it seems or how much you feel like a burden everyone that knows you will be affected and everyone that knows you well will never be able to get over it. I can tell you for a fact that there are people who care. I care. Death is never the solution no matter how big the problem. And to tell you the truth i made this account just to be able to tell you this, because I can’t bring my friend back but i want everyone to know that they’re worth so much more. A really good song that they played at her funeral is Beautiful by Mercy Me even if your not religious everyone is beautiful and worth more. And I can tell you that without even knowing you. If you take your life today then you will never know what will happen tomorrow. Because this is temporary no matter how impossible that is to be able to see right now. i hope you take this to heart.
Thank you very much for sharing your story and for your encouragement. I appreciate it.
I feel exactly like you do no point in life
I am very sorry to hear that you feel this way too.