some people are addicted to drugs, some are addicted alcohol, but for a while now I’ve been addicted to porn. It’s a horrible thing to be addicted to, but it’s not really for the watching two people fuck just for the sake of watching them. It’s like how people are so into watching movies to get away from their lives. Except my genre of movie is rated x. I know there’s no real love between those two (which is debatable), but their acting (only the handful that are pretty convincing) makes it look like they care for one another in some way, even if it’s just for their paycheck. When I was younger I would dream of the day when I could look at someone like that; so trusting, loving. But as I got older, I realized that no one is going to ever look at me like that and despite my best efforts to get out onto the dating scene, I will never find that someone whom I can trust to do that with me. So I gave up on love, and instead of being a normal person and finding dates, I hide away in my room, watching these movies, only dreaming of the day get that look.