All tumbling down

I believed what my friends and family led me to believe… I realize life is like a pyramid, you have to build the base before you begin constructing the upper levels because if you wait they won’t be able to hold the massive weight and size of what should have been placed first. Well I was led to believe early on that I was higher on the pyramid then most, I was farther along and so I should just start building from where I was. They were wrong, now my life is all wrong and nothing is where it needs to be, I’ve tried to go back now and rebuild the base but now that’s just made it all fall over… And you can’t start rebuilding unless you create a clean slate for yourself but that can never happen unless I believed in reincarnation, and I don’t. This life was my one shot and I ruined it, now I will just have to learn to live in a broken building, when that broken building is myself…