Hi. I’m 11 years old. I cant take life anymore. Why you ask? Well, many reasons. Reason 1: no one cares about me. When I do one tiny thing wrong my mom screams at me “you fuckin little *****. ur so fucking retarded”. Today, my grandmother called me a skank. I dont know why. They probably want to disown me. My dad has basically no relationship with me. He doesnt pay child support. He never visits me. Doesnt do anything with me. Thats how I know he doesn’t care about me. He probably said he wanted a kid so he could get a good fuck out of my mom. He got a 13 year old pregnant. Thats like fucking me. Nasty! reason 2: I’m ugly. I’m never gonna have a boyfriend. I’m chubby too. This kid Paul at school said” yo. u know who u should go out wit?”. I said “who?”. He said “anyone who would want you. Which is no one. Cuz ur ugly as shit and fat. No one will ever want you””. I just wanna die so fucking badly. I have my date set for when I’m gonna kill myself. April 1st. April Fools Day. Cuz my birth was just a joke. I have like 2 months and 2 sumthin days left.
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I’m really sorry about the trouble your having. I have a friend who is kind of in the same situation. If you feel like you need someone to talk to you i would listen. just tell me if you you want to talk.
I was ugly at your age then I totally changed…so leave those little boys alone they are clueless. Worry about real problems and not being ugly coz your still growing and u will change a lot believe me. Anyway your mum might just be stressed because she’s a single mum, try helping her and when your a bit older you can be friends..
let me tell you that when kids tease or bully others that means they are insecure about themselves i know bcuz i used to a “bully”and tease kids now i have no friends so dont let that little punk get you down
oh and let me just say “beauty is something you either grow into or out of”
Parents are evil, Boyfriends are worse, Being with the wrong person is worse then being with no-one. You havent done anything wrong. Your 11. Y do you deserve to die. I should stop coming on this site all i want to do is show people that anyone can do anything. If anyone treats you like shit FUCk them they are not worth your time. Words mean nothing next time she calls your something just laugh at her. tell her go wake up to her self. Alot people dont like this and usually get violent but if you out fight her you could become dominant. make your mum feel like a failure just dont back down
or just forget her and listen to music and dont talk to her do what ever you have to too survive and when u get old enough move out.
I mean theres nothing you can do. everyone is cursed someway or another. Shit will get better and it will get alot worse then it will get alot better its just how life is 11-20 is the worse time in everyone life.
im glad im ugly and no-one cares about my outside. Usually means when someone does love you, they really do love you. If you dont want to be fat and ugly running, pushups, get a job and get plastic surgery, if your vein enough to care what people think then your vein enough to change.
Plastic surgery now days makes you look like what ever you want. grind down your eye sockets, cut a little here, cut a little here all done. 3 weeks of pain 10 years of beauty or just embrace your ugliness and just become a psycho *****. Or do nothing embrace who you are and find a reason to live instead of fucking scum of the earth, men. I dont know why chicks like them 95% are fucking jerks or fucking retards only concerned with getting their dick wet. Honestly i know guys who would get married just to have sex and divorce them the next day.
every chick has to look for the 5% and four of that 5% isnt even in your country. you have 84 years before your body expires dont you want to be better than your mother and your father. I have never wanted life. but i wont waste what i have why i have it. Everything is on the internet you can do what ever you want to do, just find it.
One last thing. In your 2 months left listen to music all types music. Try and feel what the artist felt.
Start with eminem
then go to your favourite
then go to pink
then listen to everything
Music opens up your mind and allows you to think clearer
There’s a new girl at my shool (could be your age) and she looks A LOT like how you say you do (could be you) and ugh I know how you feel, that boy Paul doesn’t know any better…nobody does… and well I wonder sometimes if I were to kill myself, I’d wonder if they would ever feel guilty in the first place. What an awful thing he said. I want you to join a club/sport and open up because a friend would be great for you… Tell those jerks off goodluck with your family I can’t imagine how hard that must be for you, so If you need someone to talk to, reply, I’ll be your friend!
run away. sometimes parents are more immature than kids. take your life into your own hands
nit3fr3ak, bubbles, and troubled couldnt have put it better. you are only 11, you have your whole life ahead of you. you have many years ahead of you to learn, grow, and meet people.
i think that you need to get out of your house, and live with someone (another family member, perhaps?) you ABSOLUTELY do not deserve to be treated the way you are. NOBODY does. your grandmother and mother probably have issues of their own that they take out on you.
do whatever you can to get through this. you can survive.
A book I would recommend you read is A Child Called It, by David Pelzer. He actually wrote several sequels to it, too, about the things that happened to him as a child, and how he survived. You can google it or go to a library if you are interested.
if you need someone to talk to, I’m also here for you. you can also email me…
cutecopper19@hotmail.com
@hollywood1919 Omg those books were facinating soo sad poor guy i think he was on oprah?
i dunno if he was on oprah- but I love those books as sad as his story is. for those of you that are wondering what its about- it is the true stories of the third worst child abuse case ever in the state of california, USA
Im pretty sure he was on there and my sister told me about him and i was like what omg! So i went and borrowed the books i wonder if they made a movie? Such a strong brave guy had all that happen to him and he still forgave his mother he’s an amazing person
It’s a no-genius-secret anymore that Life can be unfair.
But nobody told that Life SHOULD be fair. the most is we have to MAKE it ourselves to be *fair*.
I know how harsh this real-world can be about physical appearance, and it does make a whole lot of people look ‘shallow’.
But it’s really up to you:
1. If you’re feeling fat etc, and really WANT to change, you can do it: go to the gym, exercise, etc. Some of my friends whom I admit to be not so pretty or handsome, when I meet them like 8 years later now, they have CHANGED so much that me & my friends at first can’t believe the *transformation*!
You CAN change for better, if you give Time and Living a chance.
But you can’t do it when you’re dead.
2. Be true to yourself and just keep doing what you truly, really love doing. Whether it painting, music, or helping others, volunteering, or join science club, whatever… ‘cuz trust me on this: you WILL eventually find people who can truly appreciate, connect, and relate with you NOT because of only your physical look, but because of OTHER things, like for example, perhaps your artworks, your knowledge, your empathy, your wisdom, etc.
This world is vast.
Sometimes staying stuck in your rut makes it *seems* small, but the reality it’s not.
You just have to DO your own part first, and keep the positive attitude, keep connecting with people, eventually you’ll find those things you always need/want. Just be persistent.
Believe me I know, because I’ve witnessed some of my friends and people changed their life for better.
Remember always: this world is VAST. it’s not as small as only in your family/household, or ur classroom, or ur 5-8 circle of friends, etc.
Just go out. Keep doing things. Stay true to yourself. Try to be more positive and find positive things to do. then good things may start rolling into your life.
It’s worth to try while you’re still living on this physical existence.
“Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with all your might, for in the realm of the dead, where you are going, there is neither working nor planning.”
– Ecclesiastes 9:10