Does anyone ever wake up for months on end and think, what the hell? why am I waking up? I am just so unhappy, and I have no desire to do anything but lay down and disappear. I want to vanish. I want to not wake up. I don’t want to hurt anyone and I’m so sick of people saying imagine all of the people who love you, how will they feel? I hate that!!!! I’m drowning in my own mind and the only response to that is imagine how my decision will make others feel. I see the Golden Gate……….and I’m checking out.