Checking Out

I think something magnetic disruption is affecting many people on earth, and the more sensitive of us, like myself, are going to have a hard time with it unless we have very stable support systems, which is the last thing I have. I have been trying to figure it out mentally and it is causing this pseudo-depression to get worse. I say pseudo because it only feels like depression, but I know I am seeing the absolute truth of the state of affairs of this world. I am an opposing force as to what is happening in all of earth right now and so are you and all of us who feel such dismay over our lives. In the truest sense, the world HAS changed, in the twinkling of an eye.

As you know, the poles are shifting and I don’t think it’s going to get better for those of us who are the sensitive spirits, so I’m going to be real here. The only thing left to do is detach oneself to anything that can cause emotional trauma, and I have completed that process. Still, I suffer tremendously. It’s been happening for me since 2001. I blame the 911 incident and what ensued thereafter. It seems that a cloud of evil dropped down upon the citizens of the earth. Everyone thinks it’s okay to lie and no one wants the truth. This is the cause of my pain. I can’t stand the vibratory level on this planet. This is only my opinion. You can take it or leave it.

My life has been one of traumatic experience after traumatic experience. I feel that I don’t belong here but I am trapped. I am sure lots of us feel this way, feel that we are being attacked unmercifully, to a great extent, if we are opposed to the current state of affairs, our lives will reflect it. We have to stay inside of ourselves or find like-minded mates.

I am not religious but I believe in the Creator of All and I believe that Yeshua has shown us the way toward the Creator because when you think about it, the Force that created All, every solitary thing in all universes, well, that’s just impossible to approach with our tiny minds. We need some conduit, like a portal or such, that can get us “there”. I think Yeshua told us about it. It has nothing to do with religion if you can understand this point. Man really screwed The Way up and that is why we all are having such a hard time transcending this. I know it logically but truly, I only can feel the absolute power of what I am saying sometimes as there is too much static upon the earth and I lose contact very easily. But if you can get church out of the things of the Creator, I know the conflict we are experiencing will dissipate greatly, and perhaps not as much as we’d like to sustain us or perhaps you are blessed that it will.

I think everything has a time and nothing is wasted, hence our emotionalism; it’s only way way of not identifying with the evil here. If we were of that type of personality where we could find happiness in what’s taking place, then we would be happy. Look at who is happy in this world, really, and you will see it’s a bunch of selfish, materialistic bastards who are only in it for themselves. Obviously it’s not you nor is it me so we are miserable. That is the only savings grace, that we know we are not like them.

I don’t know if I will gain more happiness, stay the same or worse. I don’t know if I will actually commit suicide or try to work thru this as in wait for something better. I don’t know if I have the patience or the will to carry this burden any longer. I live minute by minute. I hope I have told the absolute truth of how I feel about it and I hope it makes sense to you. I’m not trying to save your life; that is certainly not my job. I am only trying to relate to you why we feel so despondent and isolated. It is because we are.

Well, SoftSoul, you must know me as like attracts like in this matter. I have been told that is my identity from years ago but as you must know, it’s hard to find those of the same kind an very lonely.

I say that my flame is at bare minimum here because of the mission I was set about to accomplish while here. It took a lot out of me. Because of my plight and my absolute sensitivity to it, I want to make sure I am looking at things squarely in this 3D illusion so that I feel totally free in my choice All is free will, of course, but it must not be performed without justification. I do feel it proper to check out when the time is placed upon oneself.

Let me ask you, your words are so true and we have in deed been carrying the brunt of things. We know who we are. Tell me in what way have you been carrying the brunt of things in your life. I find this phrase remarkably resonates with my life here and it is not usual that one would frame in it in that manner. I’m truly interested to hear you.