I was gone from all this shit for a good while…but it just always seems to find me again. Everything in life gets me down. Im not skinny enough, not pretty enough, not smart enough. I mean right now im doing so horrible in school, why do I even try? Death has to be the only answer. Ive thought long and hard and my life will NEVER get better. I have came to the fact that I will die soon. The only reason for stopping me is the loved ones who are close, who try to help but it never works. I walk around in a dark fucking cloud, which know one ever understands. Im not moving forward in life. I wonder how can I be so young with so many problems? Mhmm guess I gotta put my fake smile on and face another day in this world.
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You sound just like me, or same scenario, pretending to be ok. I’m 15 and a girl but trust me I’m going through the same things as you are, you basically summed up my life right there. If you wanna talk here’s my email: leaffan64@hotmail.com
Hey…I wouldn’t measure your success by how well or how poorly you do in school. It isn’t the real world and the most successful people never went to school. Schools are created to program you for the working world. The hours are basically the same and the system is designed the same. You are rewarded (supposedly) for doing a good job or getting an A for doing good work and reprimanded or fired for not doing a good job which is reflected in a d or an f. So we end up using that as the end all and be all of our self worth…..it’s an illusion….not true and not a reflection on the lovely person you actually are….get it? You don’t have to be enough of anything..ie skinny, pretty….you are who you are…YOU decide what’s right and what’s enough, not anyone else. You’re gorgeous. I feel the same about myself so I have the power in my being to share that truth….people who are insecure or want to control or manipulate will try to put you down….be wise to the trap. It’s there for you to learn and to depend on your own instincts that can distinguish the truth…Cheers!