I’m 23, and have been depressed for maybe 4-5 years. I’m debating going ahead and killing myself…the only thing that’s preventing me is the insane college debt I have. While I would love to be rid of it and not think of it, my parents cosigned all my loans, and I fear I would bankrupt them if I died. They are loving supportive parents, and while I think they would have a difficult time losing me, I could still do it. But to put them in a financial crisis? That just seems like something that’s too cruel to do…they’ve worked hard all their lives, and never really got ahead. But I can’t stop thinking about it…I’m not getting better with meds or counseling, and I’m just tired. Tired of life, tired of living in a world where cruel calculating people are rewarded. I need out bad, but the thought of hurting my family is overwhelming. I don’t want to be the cruel calculating person in this situation. If only it wouldn’t hurt them so bad…
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Please don’t harm yourself. Counseling may take time but it does work. Talk to your family; they want to help. Life is worth living.
Or, find a better counselor. The first try isn’t always a charm, & a different person could be more effective.
you have lovely parents who love you and you also love them. That is a lot, and you may not appreciate it because you have it. Do you think it is possible to chat with them about how you are feeling ?