I wonder this a lot. Well, a boy who was like a brother to me got arrested for drug possession and resisting arrest. I might be kicked out of RSA (An art school). I seem to have this constant feeling of either being completely emotionless or angry… My friends seem to think its nice befriending people who call me a cutter and such, and an emo (which means emotional and I am not.) (Nor do I cut.) Sometimes I think I should though… Today I got put by the annoying guy who is shorter than I am (I’m 4′ 11″) and all he did was swear and steal crap from people. I wanted to strangle him, then he said: “Oh go cut yourself.” So I called him a stupid bastard. I seriously hate high school, whether I pass or not I’m leaving the soonest I can. My mom may be making me move to the outskirts of a few towns over and it’s all country. Good? No. New school = New enemies. That, and when I don’t know people I freak out and can’t breath right and such. Recently suicide has come to mind, and I wonder how I’ll do it. I always get a little better THEN WORSE than I was the last time. I just keep going down, never able to get up… : / I just want some peace….