I feel so alone. Unwanted by friends. Unloved by the one that has my heart. Hated by my family. I don’t know what to do anymore. I tried to kill myself awhile ago and obviously failed. I’m slipping down that path again. I started cutting again. I stopped taking those stupid anti-depressants because they don’t help for crap. I want someone to notice and care, but nobody does. They only care about themselves. I wish I had at least one person that cared…
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I care..
Although I don’t know you, know your age, your name or anything, I know exactly how you feel.
I too have felt unwanted, unloved and hated. But that’s not true. Someone wants you in their life, someone loves you, and the only reason someone hates you is because they wanna be exactly like you!
Wow, that must be hard :\
Well as you say, they are conservative, old-school, but that shouldn’t stop you from loving someone, either it’s a girl or a boy. If they can’t understand that, well then screw them!
Are you still in school, working or anything?
I just moved to another city, finding that very helpful for me. New friends, new start. I’ve screwed it a little up for myself by quitting school, but that’s just me. Maybe moving to another place will help you get your mind set another place 🙂
If you have a girlfriend, why do you feel unloved? please tell me about it if you want to. I’m here to listen! 🙂
I’m still in school. I have a couple more years to go before I get my B.A. and I also work part-time, just started a new job. I have to wait til I’m done school to tell my parents off because they pay for it and I don’t have enough credit to get any loans to help pay. I’d love to move though. I always wanted to travel. 🙂 We’ve been seeing each other for awhile but we’re not officially together. She has a lot going on and is just plain confused about some stuff. I tried to tell her that I don’t want to see her anymore bc of that but I can’t run from how I feel about her. So, I’m stuck for her to stop being confused for me to stop feeling the way I do about her. :/ Lixie, I must admit even though we just started talking on here, you’re a hell alot nicer to me then any of my “friends” are.
Nice to hear 🙂 I feel the same! But that is just because you and I are much more alike than we are like our other “friends”. I understand you, and you understand me.
I know how your love-life is too, been there! although it was with a boy, and it maybe wasn’t as confusing to him as it is for your love. If she just got “out of the closet” maybe she don’t know how to react, or if she has been in heterosexual relationships before, she maybe now doesn’t know how to act with you. Do you feel loved by her? Or do you feel like she is using you?
I’ve been in a relationship where I felt my boyfriend used me, and that was the case to, luckily I realised it fast and got out of it, although I tried to take my life 2 times while being with him, and had to go to a therapist afterwards because my life was so screwed up. I don’t want that to happen with you, so if you feel like she is using you, I would try to get out of love, I know it’s hard – the hardest thing I’ve ever done at least.. But you should be treated like a godess, a queen.. Because that is what you are! 🙂 And you deserve the best, don’t let anyone tell you otherwise!
If you want, we could talk private, but I don’t wanna give away my email/msn here where people can see it and I assume you don’t want that either, so I don’t know how we can manage to do that.
No, she’s been out since she was in jr high. It’s a long story about why she’s confused but I’d love to tell you it just not on here lol. I don’t feel like she’s using me but I feel like that she just doesn’t know want she wants. I know she does care about me though. She and my roommate at school were the ones to find me when I tried to commit suicide. Aww thankyou 🙂 I’d love to talk to you more privately. Hmm do you have fb? What I can do is I’ll leave another comment for a couple mins with my name on it and just look me up on there and I’ll delete it quickly?
But can you delete it? I have fb 🙂
test it with another comment to see if you can delete it, and ill update until i see a name and leave a comment when i got you name! 🙂
got it 😉
yay lol