Back before i had a computer of my own that i could keep private thoughts in, i wrote in a notebook. I simply put down notes like we do on this board. I still have this notebook as it offers an amazing look at what i was thinking at some of my worst times….there’s even bits of blood on some parts.
Here is a note i opened up too at random
Every day it feels more like am loseing touch with reailty, everything feels like a dream. Am walking to the store and i think “If i get hit by a car right now will i wake up”
That passage was about five years old