I’ve been diagnosed with it…and I just wanted to hear what it’s like for others with it.
The psych told me I will always feel this way(the saddness)…I shall also tell him at my next visit, that I’m perfectly content with killing myself in 6 years. My mother called me weak, and needy, that I have no tolerance, really, if there’s nothing wrong with the way we live, then why does my father tell us he wants to die every night, and why is my brother now scitsophrenic? Sigh…
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I was, but they no say I have Complex-PTSD and that alot of ppl with C-PTSD get misdiagnosed with BPD cuz C-PTSD has lots of BPD traits…
I was diagnosed. No therapist wants me in their office, so now I hate therapy, and all therapists. I am too emotionally dysregulated, apparently. I recently dropped all my meds. Running on pure, raw emotion. It’s difficult, and fun at the same time. I have no desire to hurt anyone, just myself.
Shelly, what is C-PTSD? I feel that I’ve been misdiagnosed, myself, and have noticed that most BPD are too.
They have only ever put my on anti-depressants, and now since diagnosed, he doesn’t want to put me on anything. I don’t want to hurt anyone either…just myself, but I’ve been waking up so angry lately…I think the BPD is something new, ontop of my clinical state of depression- fun!
Where do you live z? I was turned down by on psych, cause she thought I was too complex for her.
Complex-Post Traumatic Stress Disorder…
Someone on here suggested that I may also be a Highly Sensitive Personality Type person but *shrugs* to me it’s just another label…
West Coast.
That’s the problem. The stigma. As soon as you get the BPD diagnosis they shoo you out the door. No one will work with you because you are too much work. So I hate all of them. So now I drink alcohol more often to suppress my rage episodes. When I drink I am less prone to have my mini-rage episodes that occur frequently throughout the day. I just get calm and happy and love everyone (mostly everyone, not the people that terrify me, 95% of the population). So, perhaps, sometime soon I will die from that. Drink, take a bunch of pills and hopefully I won’t end up in the ER with my stomach pumped.
The thing is, I saved all my pills. Once I got dumped by my last therapist I was so mad I swore to never go to therapy again. And I got off the pills, so I have a surplus, for a dark and rainy Summer day. So fuck them. Fuck this world. I will rage before I become a vegetable to everyone and everything.
Have you seen the scene with the pompous psychiatrist giving the lecture in the film Wolfman, lol, it’s fucking classic! I was going yes, yes!!!! O.O
I was diagnosed with PTSD (but I have my doubts about that one) and BPD. I don’t doubt I have BPD. If you want to ever talk about anything, what it’s like, the certain symptoms with it, what we should do to help ourselves, I’m always here to talk. My email is rerdmank1@gmail.com or I have a facebook. Just look up Violet Blake and mine is the picture with the dark haired girl with the really curly hair, brown eyes, and odd look on her face :p lol
Yes, I understand Shelly, if you already have plenty of labels, why top it up with more.
I was lucky to find someone who would talk to me, who also diagnosed me, but I only get to see him every three months it would seem…I am hoping he can somewhat help me.
I’m sorry that you have to drink so much, I know it’s the gate way to escaping for only a temporary fix.
rage, pain, and saddness is all we ever have in the end…I don’t have any extra pills, due to overdosing all the time…blah.
Wolfman…I’ll have to check it out Shelly!